At the Crossroads....(Poem)

I'm bleeding and its a shame

that I am breathing and someone's playing me like a game

Yet the jokes on me

You see,

I wonder how far I was going to fall

when I allowed the enemy in my life

I'm the basketball 

on the court

bouncing into hole

the other team score 

while the other team won't work

Your ideal promises broke into my heart

had my mind all torn apart

I want to be angry with you

but I must be true

to the fact that it really is my fault

I was better off to steal from you and to get caught

then to have to face myself in the mirror

what a horror.

Not that I'm ugly or unattractive

but that my inner beauty

has nothing else to give

from such a cutie....pie

Man! my soul has seem to have died

I'm reminded of the energy that's of yours within me

that makes me feel so incomplete

Yes! I walked away

Yes! my heart is stained

Yes! I quit

only to rethink my actions to not commit

to you

to us

no matter how much I've tried

or cried

there's no trust

Did I hear God right

or did I hear "that is not right?"

Maybe I heard something

that was meant for nothing

Come on Punkin

get it together

it just had to get better

I thought you were the heart of David man!

I thought you would lead like Moses and provide me a hand

I thought you had faith like Abraham, boy was I wrong

Unlike Noah your attention to detail just didn't make the song

fit for this misfit

whose was trying to not quit

Can your selfishness get out your own path

why is 1+1 equals three, whats up with the math

the mind is a terrible thing to waste

so is the heart and love of a woman trace

My heart has failed me

My ears have become deaf

because I opened up and walked away

can I claim it theft?

Can I call 911

Can I have a talk with the Father and Son

How can this be

and why did this happen to me

I know I know

its my fault

it was my love for you

that had me caught

Up in the moment

now here I am with no feelings

my piggy bank is all spent

Wow!  Where is the sunshine that be

Where is me?

I am hanging here on this cross

bleeding, 

open,

naked

for the world to see my loss.......

Sincerely,