Take a look Inside
Come...
Come closer.
Close you eyes.
Tell me......what do you see?
Could it be the color of red?
For all the times I have been hurt?
The color blue?
For when I cried over past hurts along with the present?
Yellow?
For the many days I stare into the sun to find some peace.
Perhaps it was brown
for the racial judgments that came from peers and hate in our world.
Maybe you see the color black
For what people claim I am but technically I am not because I AM Brown!
I know.....I know you what see.....PURPLE!
For all the ROYALTY God has placed in me.
You see the light that shines where ever and when ever I walk into a room.
The love that is so pure and so deep like a bottomless sea.
You see all the wrongs, made right.
The dirt that stained my soul is now washed clean.
The frowns that wrinkled my face has now turned into smiles.
A heart that was once shattered is made whole.
A girl who had a lot of growing up to do has turned into a beautiful and delicate flower of a woman.
All things are important, but tell me.....
can you see my red for all the love pouring in and out for you?
Blue.....the way I feel when we are apart?
Yellow.....for wanting to be with you as the sun set?
Brown.....for loving the smoothness and the way you hold me in your chocolate brown arms?
Black....the many times we have and will continue to black the devils eye for standing in our way?
and Purple for God's love for the both of us? Can you see my colors? Do know that those same colors are now a rainbow of God's undying love for me?
We were made in the image of God but God made us for each other.
Thanks for being a HUGE part of my life.
Come closer.
Close you eyes.
Tell me......what do you see?
Could it be the color of red?
For all the times I have been hurt?
The color blue?
For when I cried over past hurts along with the present?
Yellow?
For the many days I stare into the sun to find some peace.
Perhaps it was brown
for the racial judgments that came from peers and hate in our world.
Maybe you see the color black
For what people claim I am but technically I am not because I AM Brown!
I know.....I know you what see.....PURPLE!
For all the ROYALTY God has placed in me.
You see the light that shines where ever and when ever I walk into a room.
The love that is so pure and so deep like a bottomless sea.
You see all the wrongs, made right.
The dirt that stained my soul is now washed clean.
The frowns that wrinkled my face has now turned into smiles.
A heart that was once shattered is made whole.
A girl who had a lot of growing up to do has turned into a beautiful and delicate flower of a woman.
All things are important, but tell me.....
can you see my red for all the love pouring in and out for you?
Blue.....the way I feel when we are apart?
Yellow.....for wanting to be with you as the sun set?
Brown.....for loving the smoothness and the way you hold me in your chocolate brown arms?
Black....the many times we have and will continue to black the devils eye for standing in our way?
and Purple for God's love for the both of us? Can you see my colors? Do know that those same colors are now a rainbow of God's undying love for me?
We were made in the image of God but God made us for each other.
Thanks for being a HUGE part of my life.
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| My Champ and I |
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Disclaimer: This poem has strong material content. It deals with domestic violence which is a big problem among our younger generation. I really want to stress the importance that IT DOES HAPPEN! Please feel free to comment at the bottom. God bless.
The Dearest Family
Woke up this with a black eye.
I know how I got it, I just don’t know why
You see when Johnny came home late last night
He cursed me out, we argued then he had to fight
On his breath he had some liquor
Which means his temper was high and much more quicker
I call myself looking pretty for my man
He took one look at me and I saw his hand
Right on my right cheek he hit me hard
To the point where I was caught off guard
In my stomach he hit me with his fist
I tried to move but he didn’t miss
I kneed to the floor begging him to stop
He scanned the room only to find the mop
Taking the handle he beat me in the head
Blood everyone I thought I was dead.
He didn’t stop there he kept on going
Kicking and beating me trying to destroy me
I couldn’t breathe life was leaving me behind
He didn’t care about me or that I was crying
He took my face and smeared it across the floor
I yelled and kicked he gave it to me once more
I guess it turned him on to see me beg for my life
The kids was awake watching their father kill his wife
He yelled for them to go to bed.
Grabbed his beer bottle then hit me in my head
I felt my life was hanging by a thread
It got dark I just knew I was dead
There was no light, I couldn’t see
I felt a lot of pain like something’s jabbing at me
There was a girl that appeared so small
She looks like my daughter being thrown to a wall
I can hear her crying and pleading for her life
Only to realize that she is grown, a mother, and a wife
I thought to myself what was happening here
Did I want to die or continue to live there
What seem so real and yet so cruel
I now know what I must every rule
I woke from my sleep to see a mess
My husband Johnny had ripped my dress
I realized what happened to me while I was out
Johnny had raped me without a doubt.
Sitting in the chair sleep was his best friend
Undressed, past out, and snoring to the end.
Johnny in the bed out like a light
I crawled to the cabinet like a thief in the night
I placed my hand upon my head
Then grabbed the gun and shot them both dead.
I waited ten hours before calling the police
I wanted them dead, forever sleep
I want his soul to be own by Satan
Just ripped, destroyed, demolished and taken
Just all the things he has done to me
I hope his death forbidden his eyes to see
That he cannot treat people any sort of way
And think that he will never have a day
Johnny and his friend may have had fun
But I tell you I got the last laugh, I won
Weeks then months had went by
I don’t think about the day they died
Sometimes I am glad it happened that way
I wouldn’t switch the future for that day
The judge didn’t give me any jail time
Everyone saw the pictures from the crime
On the way home from the county court house
I ran into Johnny’s first born whom they called Mouse
She had tears in her eyes and walked up to me
I gave her a hug and she whispered Rest In Peace
I heard a pop as I feel to the ground
Mouse was firing a second round
She stated to me, “I am sick of your story
Nothing is ever gained from someone else’s glory
My father was wrong but so were you
You took a life you are guilty to
I see you both when I get to hell
No pain any sorrow there’s nothing else to tell
The cycle must end this will not happen to another
BANG! I am coming to join you Father
-and of course my Dearest Stepmother.
07/19/00
Sincerely,
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The Love of a Man
The love of a man is embedded into the soul.
It can break you in half and make you whole
For a man's touch can send electric waves,
making a woman not knowing how to behave
There's nothing a woman can do for the same
I am living a righteous life & ain't got time for games
When God created me he made a man just for me
Out of his rib was a woman born, you see
God didn't make any mistakes, he broke the mold
Yet society tell us it hates when we reject sin and its hold
I love the old films showing a man and woman in love
Its a reminder of Gods love, its like a hand in a glove
I rather have a man, Godly man, that is
To share my life with and be completely his.
For there is nothing a woman can do for the same
I am living this righteous life, I don't have time for the games.
This man will cherish the creation given to him
It will be ordained by God not some phantom limb.
He will have muscles with arms so strong
Not a sassy walk for that would be all wrong.
A manly voice that will speak wisdom
and when we disagree, no one will play the victim.
Don't call me a hater for what I like
I won't send you to hell for being a dyke....
Gay, Lesbian or whatever your title is today
I just love me a man, my man, in every way!Disclaimer - Whatever life style you choose is your business. I am expressing myself through creative thinking and writing. If you are offended by what is written please visit another website. This is not for you. This is not hate, this is poetry!
Sincerely,
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IF
If I can have you with me all the time, I would be glued to you.
If I can keep you safe wrapped in my love, my arms, my heart and soul without ever hurting you, I would keep you safe.
If I can be with you without the doubts, concerns, pass heart aches, I would be with you forever.
If I can promise you that I would never make a mistake or hurt your heart or pride, I would make that promise.
If I can look into your eyes and provide you with my thoughts, my desires, my wants and you feel my love instantly without a doubt, I would stare into your eyes forever.
If I tell you that I will love you forever and mean it from my heart, believe me.
If I say I will try to spare your heart from being broken, I will try harder to not hurt you.
If I love you today I know that I will ALWAYS love you tomorrow because that is forever with you.
If I am not around you I want you to know that I am thinking of you, desiring you, most importantly still loving you.
If I make a fool of myself trying to love you at all times, I guess that makes me a sucker for love.
If I have the need to be please, I will depend on you.
All the if’s in the world can’t stop me from being in love with you. I love you always!
Especially written for my husband
Especially written for my husband
